Thoughts of the Day/Song of the Day David Gray Babylon

I'll preface this by saying I am not sure how many people follow my blog or even read anything I write on here.  In the end it is all for me anyways...  With that being said it has been a really long time since I have done any actual blogging and/or writing here. But I feel like I just need to say some stuff and use this as an outlet right now like I use to.

Last night I went to the Mayer Hawthorne show with two of my best and oldest friends.  Sometimes it is crazy to me how long we have been friends, and how old we have become.  While at the same time I still see us as those kids growing up together.  I can truly see how time after college starts to fly by.  You start to live for your weekends and things just move.  I had this realization back in May right out of school, and last night I happened again.  I just felt life, you know real life-the real world if you will.  It just seems like when I am doing my thing that I am on my schedule no thought of going back to school or the work I need to do just living.  I have always looked up to those older than me and wanted to be them, like most of us do.  It is funny because we all continue to chase that idea and still think of ourselves as young.  I love the moments when I realize that I am there now at that point.  To live in the present is key to all things.  These are the good times, the glory years.  Life is quick and youth is fleeting, it is important to do what you want and to enjoy it.

Recently things have been really crazy and hectic(working 12 hr days and 60 hour weeks chasing my dreams!)  It is a daily grind and really can wear you down at times.  But I am happy paying my dues and making strides.  I am still shocked sometimes that I am actually getting to work in the industry I have wanted to work in since I was a child.  I heard a great quote the other day that said "People say good things come to those who wait.  The truth is good things come to those who work!"  So I work and I work hard to make my dreams come true.

Last night at the show I was at a place that holds a lot on memories and significance in my life.  While I was enjoying my night and really soaking up the present moment and looking forward to this new memory.  A lyric to the David Gray song Babylon popped into my head.  It really took my out of the present and made me think of the past.  Then on the car ride home after my 60+ hour work week Babylon shuffled up. The lyrics really touched me.  It had me thinking the whole ride home and pretty much was a catalyst to me writing this tonight.

I can see so many things in my life falling into place and I am really looking forward to my future.  But even with all the career success and opportunity I still feel like something or someone is missing.

I guess when it comes down to it...

I miss you.



Friday night I'm going nowhere 
All the lights are changing green to red 
Turning over TV stations 
Situations running through my head 
Well looking back through time 
You know it's clear that I've been blind 
I've been a fool 
To ever open up my heart 
To all that jealousy, that bitterness, that ridicule 


Saturday I'm running wild 
And all the lights are changing red to green 
Moving through the crowd I'm pushing 
Chemicals all rushing through my bloodstream 
Only wish that you were here 
You know I'm seeing it so clear 
I've been afraid 
To tell you how I really feel 
Admit to some of those bad mistakes I've made 


 If you want it 
Come and get it 
Crying out loud 
The love that I was 
Giving you was 
Never in doubt 
Let go your heart 
Let go your head 
And feel it now 


Babylon, Babylon 


Sunday all the lights of London 
Shining , Sky is fading red to blue 
I'm kicking through the Autumn leaves 
And wondering where it is you might be going to 
Turning back for home 
You know I'm feeling so alone 
I can't believe 
Climbing on the stair 
I turn around to see you smiling there 
In front of me 

If you want it 
Come and get it 
Crying out loud 
The love that I was 
Giving you was 
Never in doubt 
And feel it now 
Let go your heart 
Let go your head 
And feel it now 
Let go your heart 
Let go your head 
And feel it now 

Song of The Day "Green Eyed Love" Mayer Hawthorne

This is a great trippy video for one of my favorite songs! A song that I am definitely feeling at the moment as well...

My love, my green eyed love
You know when push comes to shove
I need you, you're in my blood

Take me outside of it all
When I'm stuck in my head

My beuatiful green eyed love
I'm always dreamin of
My beautiful green eyed love

Take me away from it all
When I feel i can't cope
They say they say they say
You're no good for me
But i know I know that's a lie
And since I'm slow sometimes
I just don't know anymore
But I never want to say goodbye

Song of the day "Window Seat" by Erykah Badu feat ?uestlove

I downloaded this song about a month or so ago its finally starting to be released wide due to the fact that Miss Badu's album drops on Tuesday! I have missed her music for awhile now its real soulful and funky. I can relate to this song right now as well which is always good when listening to new music. Plus ?uestlove did the drums so you know its legit!

You know a little GREEN TEA for my Erykah Badu chicks!

I need u to want me
Need you to miss me
I need your attention
I need you next me
I need someone to clap for me
I need your direction
Somebody say come back
Come back baby come back
I want u to need me
Come back come back baby come back
Come back come back baby come back
Come back come back baby come back
So, in my mind i’m tusslin’
Back and forth ‘tween here and hustlin’
I don’t wanna time travel no mo

This is the actual video that came out yesterday for the song its pretty strange but I mean its in par with Miss Badu...and she takes off her clothes its trip.

Song of the day "Soundtrack 2 My Life" by Kid Cudi

This is one of my favorite songs from Kid Cudi he is one of the best artiest out right now fo sho...This video just dropped today and its pretty cool just following him around on tour you know the day to day livin

I got 99 problems and they all bitches
Wish i was jigga man
Care free livin.

My hearts an open sore that i hope heals soon
I live in a cocoon opposite of cancun
Where it is never sunny the dark side of the moon
So its moving right i try to shed some light on the man
Not many people of this planet understand.

Haters shake my hand but i keep the sanitizer on deck
Hope i really get to see thirty
Wanna settle down stop being so flirty
Most of the clean faces be the most dirty

I've got some issues that nobody can see
And all of these emotions are pourin' outta me
I bring them to the light for you
It's only right
This is the soundtrack to my life
The soundtrack to my life

New Watch

I finally spent my Amazon gift cards that i've had since christmas! And this is what I got! I have wanted a sports watch for a while now. This past week on SB I realized how much it was needed since I couldn't wear my other watch to snorkel or really do anything at the beach or outside. I like to keep my things nice you know so they last a long time. I have been pretty into watches since I got my other watch for my birthday over the summer. While shopping for this watch I finally saw how much my birthday watch cost. I had never checked to see because that kind of thing doesn't mean anything to me. The price of the gift is not what makes it special ya know. But this watch DAMN! I always loved it and thought it was great before I knew but now I just feel like damn what a nice gift/watch/ fuck my life right now she was/is such a BA!

Spring Break 2010 and the State of Things

This past week was spring break. It was really needed to say the least but of course it came and went to quickly...I went on a cruise with the Ksaw family it was soooo good to see all my friends. I didn't know how long it had been since I had seen a lot of my people. I realize now just how much I missed all of them. I always knew I missed them...moving away from my Ksaw family was very hard to do. Living here in Athens away from everything I really care about I realize how alone I am, I don't really have anyone to talk to about how I really feel you know. The friends I have here are new and I am def not comfortable talking to them about my personal affairs. I had some great conversations with my brothers over the break. I do know that moving away has helped with me and my brother Joseph "Stacks" Spada relationship which is a positive.

Its hard to start over...I've always said no regrets, and I don't regret anything that has happened in the last year but its hard to not think what if...what if this what if that. I try not to think about her but E is always in the back of my mind. Life gets hard sometimes...

Anyways I am back to reality...time to rock out the rest of the semester and figure out what I am going to do this summer! MAN It never stops!

Paradise

All the brothers together

Rocking the suit

Enjoying paradise

Our Ship

Snorkeling

Graffiti Stencils in Nassau

Mayer Hawthorne Saturday at The Loft

This Saturday Mayer Hawthorne will be performing live with Bosco and Nikke jean at the Loft in ATL. I wish I could go or had someone to go with! This is the type of thing that I miss now that I don't live near ATL! Makes me sad on the inside fo shotis...

Song of the day "Umi Says" by Mos Def

I LOVE THIS SONG! I bought Mos Def's Black on Both Sides album when I was 12 years old. This song was a big reason for why I wanted it. I am 22 years old now and this song has been in my life for a decade now. Every time I hear it I can transport myself to soooo many places in time. It has personally been there for me in hard times and in good. I think the songs message is very important. We all struggle and have things that bring us down, and sometimes we might not understand everything that happens but we have to move on because life is short. We have to shine our light on the world and be there for the ones that love us and the ones we love. People come and go in your life and some can touch your soul, sometimes they are in your life for a longtime like your family and other times they might just be the person who helps you at the store you never know. I guess what I am trying to say is its important to cherish every moment you are here because you never know when things might change. Its been ten years and when times get tough I still think of these lyrics its a part of me and it goes: "I ain't no perfect man I'm trying to do, the best that I can, With what it is I have."

Tomorrow may never come
For you or me
Life is not promised
Tomorrow may never show up
For you and me
This life is not promised

I ain't no perfect man
I'm trying to do, the best that I can,
With what it is I have
I ain't no perfect man
I'm trying to do, the best that I can,
With what it is I have

Put my heart and soul into this song (yes yes)
I hope you feel me
From where I am, to wherever you are
I mean that sincerely
Tomorrow may never come
For and me
Life is not promised
Tomorrow may never appear
You better hold this very moment very close to you (right now)
Very close to you (right now)
So close to you, So- close to you (your moment in history is right now!)
Don't be affraid, to let it shine

Sometimes I get discouraged
I look around and, things are so weak
People are so weak
Sometimes,
Sometimes I feel like crying
Sometimes my heart gets heavy
Sometimes I just want to leave and fly away (fly fly fly, like a dove)
Sometimes I don't know what to do with myself (ow!)
Passion takes over me
I feel like a man
Going insane
Losing my brain
Trying to maintain
Doing my thang

Song of the day "Highs and Lows" by Kid Cudi

Probably a month ago now I heard this song and right away I loved it. Even before Cudi says a single word and that Lay Lady Lay sample hit my ear. At a young age i'd say my musical taste was a lot different then others. Having an older brother just gives you that kind of information...maybe even before my time. When my brother got on Bob Dylan about 10 years ago I was only 12 but his music was great. From Knockin' on Heavens Door to Lay Lady Lay and from Hurricane to Shelter From The Storm I was hooked. I even got a chance to see him live. Now a days you wouldn't guess that I am a Dylan fan. I never really listen to him at all, but I am a fan. This song came around at a time in which I can totally relate with what Cudi is saying.

I was high
When I first had the taste of love
I was high
When I left the city I was from
And I was low
When I had a recent heartbreak
I was low
Cause I truly thought I had a mate
I was low
When I lost her over silliness
I was low
Cause she twisted what my words meant
But I was high
When I finally had the chance to see
Everything that's pretty ain't always good for me
I was high
When she first said I like you
Man I must be too high to even write, dude
And these things show you growth
Some niggas show a little
But I'll show you the most
Highs and lows
and succeed for sho
The only thing left to do is say a toast
Cause...
I be high
Then I be low
I be low
Then I be high
It's like a battle knife to a gun fight
But I be cool
This the story of my life

Song of the day "You've Got The Love I Need Remix" by Florence and The Machine

I found this song on the How To Make It In America Mixtape as it shuffled on my iphone a couple weeks ago when I was walking home from class. I like it alot it has a good beat and its a duet and I am a sucker for a duet. The lyrics are really good, I use to have what its talking about..I felt like I could understand its feeling you know fully appreciate it, but not anymore its gone...all in all the song is still dope.

We On Some Hip-Hop One Year Anniversary!

Today is the one year anniversary of me starting this blog. Sometimes I don't know why I started it I guess looking back on it I realized that I check out a lot of blogs online and just thought it would be cool to have my own...to share my thoughts and things that I like...I mean its way cooler than FB right!

Overall I am not really sure how people feel about my blog... if they like it or if anyone really looks at it at all. I didn't start it to get recognition from anyone or anything like that, when it comes down to it its for me and thats that. I have heard from some of my good friends like my boy Luke Tilt that my blog is cool so thats whats up.

God so much has changed this past year since I started my blog! I live in a new town I'm making new friends and just trying to get by! There are so many things that i'd like to be different at this moment, but like they always say hindsight is 20/20 and I guess it truly is, you don't know what you've got till its gone and so on and so forth. I am hoping for the best in the next year. A new decade is upon us the last one went out on a bad note but I am ready for the best and the worst so lets GO!

OneLove!

Song of The Day: "Daughters" John Mayer

I watched a John Mayer Storytellers this morning and it was cool to hear him talk about his songs, why he wrote them and what not. John Mayer is one of the last true musicians left, he plays and writes his own songs. I've always liked this song I know exactly what he is saying in the first verse...

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls are continually changed
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Lake Bell

After further review its official Lake Bell is gorgeous! She is smoking hot...just my type dark skin, dark hair, green eyes and a total half jew!

Pita Pizza

Pita Pizza is so Dank Phi...For mine I start with a pita and spread pesto all over it then I add a sliced roma tomato garlic a lot of mozzarella and parmesan cheese..place it in the oven at 400 for 10 minutes and enjoy!

Song of The Day: "History" Mos Def Feat Talib Kweli

This is one of my favorite cuts off of Mos Def's latest album The Ecstatic. I have a specific memory of this song: I was in NYC over the summer and went to John Forte album release party at this amazing underground bar it was a sick spot. I had walked up to the bar to get a drink and standing right next to me was Talib Kweli himself. It was tight to say the least. The DJ didn't miss a beat and put on this track...a great moment in my life.

Song of The Day: "The Lengths" The Black Keys

The Black Keys have became one of my favorite bands. They make me excited about new music that is not Hip Hop sorry...Hip Hop is still my first love. I grew up listening to every kind of music under the sun and I've been told recently that all I listen to is Hip Hop and I guess lately I have departed from really anything but Hip Hop. But recently I guess i've realized I need to look back, forward and further to find other forms of music to listen to and enjoy. I like to think of myself as pretty well rounded and I need to start to truly be that way. Like Sam Cooke said A Change is Gonna Come.

Anyways...

I always thought this was a BEAutiful song ever since the first time I heard it driving back home from CT last summer. Every part of it the music the words and how he sings touches my soul right now! I can really feel what he is getting across down to my core every word is so true...

Tell me where you're goin or
what is going wrong
I felt you leavin before
you'd even gone
and hold me now
or never ever hold me again
no more talk
can take me from this pain I'm in pain i'm in

See the moonlight shinin on
your window pane
see it leave you as
faithful as it came
please yourself so you
don't have to be afraid
make amends
or carry on another way another way

tell me what you were thinkin
to treat somebody so
the care he took the
lengths to which he'd go
coals are hot to walk
across without your shoes
but in the end
know that you got nothin to lose nothin to lose

Straight Out The Box Wit It...

There is nothing like a nice day of consumerism to lift your spirits when you are down! Today I went up to Lenox mall in the A to pick up some fresh gear at the Nike Store for me and Christmas presents for the people in my life that I care about! Not only were these bad boys just put on sale for $50 less but I got 40% off that! I also copped a sweet ACG Nike rain jacket and a couple of nice sweaters and a pair of gloves from Banana Republic. All in all I'd say it was a success I got me some sweet digs and I think all the gifts I got others they will enjoy too...

BLAKROC

This project right here has me excited about new music again! BLAKROC is a combination of The Black Keys which I had heard of but never listened to until E introduced me to them and now I am a huge fan, and some of the most intelligent and profound hip hop artist in the game today like Mos Def, Q-Tip, RZA, and RAEKWON. Their first album dropped on Black Friday(how novel) and its dope a must listen for sure. I can't wait for more music from these cats...If they tour its going to be insane!

Short Trailer

Live on Late Night With Jimmy Fallon

Matisyahu One Day Live on Letterman

I haven't really been in a blogging mood lately. I think you have to feel driven or inspired or care in order to really do and create or honestly even comment on others creations and things you might be into i.e. to BLOG.

Matisyahu one of my favorite musical artist of today, if not of all time, took a break from his eight night Festival of Lights concert experience in NYC during Chanukah to perform on Letterman. He played One Day a BEAutiful song...check it out!

OneLove to all my full and HALF Jewish brothers and sister.

Song of the year: "Life Is Better" Q-Tip feat Norah Jones

This is one of my favorite songs of the past year. I think that it is one of the best hip-hop duets that i've ever heard if not the best...It came fresh off of Q-Tip's second album The renaissance and on first listen I knew it was my favorite...an amazing song. The video is pretty fresh. It seems simple but I like the effects.

Life’s filled with pain
But now the clouds come in
Leaves fall away
Hip Hop is playing again
Is playing tunes
No banging for you
Don’t stop this feel I feel
I just want to know that all day I feel the breeze
I’m so into your rich history
Tell me stories that take me away
Come take me (Ohhh, ohhhh)
Come take me with you

Life is, better, now that, now that I found you